These past couple of months have taught me a lot. I have had some personal struggles that have really made me question who I am and what I want out of life. I was offered a job full time at the police department at the city, only to have it rescinded before I even started. They gave me no real reason and it became a huge blow to my self esteem. I got to keep my job at the gym, but I had already left my second part time job at Kid to Kid. I was so disappointed and missed all my friends there. I had to make a decision, should I find another job and work all that I can to have the things we want, or should I choose to stay home more with my little guy. In the end the husband and I decided the thing for our family was for him to pick up some extra work and for me to stay home. It was an adjustment but I needed to be happy with what I have.
I got another perspective changer when my good friend Melanie passed away a couple of weeks ago. She was 30 and had a son a little older then Henry. I couldn't believe she was really gone. It was something that made me think, if I was gone tomorrow and all Henry had of me were other people's memories what would I want them to say. It was heartbreaking, but it made me feel good about the kind of mom I try to be. We all are struggling everyday. Every one of us is fighting a battle. I just wish we could all remember that and show compassion to others. I hope I remember these lessons I learned.
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I love this post!!! I am so sorry for your friend. I remember when you posted her picture on facebook. but you are so right. I love being home with my children and has not always been easy and being able to get out in the evening for part time job has been nice and helps the family a little. We really need to show more compassion and everyone did our world really be a better place. Your little Henry is so cute and growing up so big.
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